my room is messy. there are too many shoes and too many articles of clothing, too many neglected text books and too many socks. what's with all the socks?
anyways, tonight is thanksgiving dinner at the dining center, which i'm only extremely excited about! there will be stuffing (yum), garlic mashed potatoes & gravy (yum), turkey (yum-ish), and pumpkin pie (omfg & yum).
and after the most delicious dinner ever, i have to start and, perhaps, finish my humanities study guide...the fun just doesn't stop.
i'm entirely scatter brained right now and nothing seems to matter (well, thanksgiving dinner matters a hell of a lot, i suppose) and i can't seem to focus on anything.
i guess i'm just too facking tired!
HOBO ALERT.
Can't say I didn't warn you.
Anyhow, on a more pressing, but less amazing, topic: I really, truly, badly, deeply want an ipod video nano to call my own.
That is all.
pointlessly blogging,
emma
this weekend has been a series of "ups and downs." let me lay out for you:
the good:
-the speech team doing well as a whole, a.rae & sauer rocking the individual sweeps.
-buel dropping her [creep] timer during an ADS round.
-pizza hut italian bistro because we're so classy.
-late night discussions in the girls room at the hotel.
-target on friday night, walgreens on saturday night.
-finally buying my FACKING MICROKETTLE (of which i'm drinking tea from currently).
-seeing certain persons stand up to she-who-must-not-be-named.
-mcfarland got cast in two plays (sure, one's for da bears but still...it almost counts? : ] )
-i don't have to do my informative ever again which is great (due to my hatred for informative rounds). it's slightly sad because i did have a good speech but the relief of the situation outweighs the "grief" over abandoning the piece.
the bad:
-i sucked it up this weekend, as far as speech goes.
-my Grandma's brother, my Uncle Marlyn passed away this weekend. It's good because he's not in the hospital anymore. It's bad because he's gone and I wish he wasn't.
-two good people in my life have died within the last two weeks and i want so much to wake up and have them both be here. i want Brad to be back in Ames waiting to hang out over thanksgiving break and i want Uncle Marlyn to be healthy in Arizona with his family and still living his awe-inspiring life so that we can all hang out over Christmas break. That's what I want. [Rest In Peace.]
detached,
emma
i'm anxious for tomorrow's competition.
i'm anxious for sunday's competition.
i'm anxious because i switched up my POI.
i'm anxious about my info.
and right now, i'm anxious when it comes to blogging. i have public blogging anxiety.
it's a serious condition.
sleep-deprived,
emma
it's approaching a full week since i bought Elf and I've yet to finish watching it. This is terribly displeasing but it seems that everytime I sit or lay down to watch it, I fall asleep.
Too tired for Elf? Tragic.
fatigued,
emma
So as I sit here, sipping on "calm" tea with honey from my polar bear mug, dressed in a thermal t-shirt and sweatpants- it has occured to me: i'm not doing the normal "college thing". i just answered the door to find 3 girls wanting to know if i wanted to go out. they were all dressed up and wearing clothes that were entirely insensible for the 8th of November and I was wearing "Cuddle Duds" brand. And maybe that's good, right? My liver will benefit and most likely my grades will as well. Plus, I'll finally get to finish watching "Elf" but I want my Thursdays back, I want my weekends back. I want my freedom back!
But not really. Truthfully, I enjoy the structure and I love the people so much that are involved in speech...it's just that right now, in this moment, I wish I could be free. I wish I could go out tonight and I wish I could crash after my noon class and wake up again only to start it all again at 6.
But that's out of the cards right now. Which is good, right?
Thanksgiving Break can't come soon enough.
caged,
emma
I've been having a hard time finding enough hours in one day to accomplish even half of the things I set out to do. However, after listening to the entire song "Freebird" by Lynyrd Skynyrd- I have reason to believe that there are plenty of hours in a day, I just use them up with all the fun and procrastinate the not-so-fun until I find myself on the edge of a breakdown and THEN the book is read, the essay is written, the speech is memorized, the laundry is done and the fish is fed (poor Gary).
But that's what life is about, in my esteemed (ha) opinion. If you have no fun then the things you are doing are hardly worth doing! Thus when she-who-must-not-be-named demands that I be more serious and encourage those around me to lower the amount of fun....I say "no thank you!" I will continue to work hard and having fun (simultaneously perhaps!) because if I am not having fun then I will no longer be motivated and if I'm no longer motivated, quitting isn't the hardest thing for me to do anymore. Just Saying.
But alas, she-who-must-not-be-named cannot put a stop to the fun so quitting is out of the question. Deal with it.
" Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change. "
dedicated,
emma
tough times are hard to get through.
but i've come to many realizations this week that i think are worth sharing:
1. chai tea cures everything
2. ben harper and jack johnson are good at life
3. people are precious; friends are priceless
4. tact is necessary
5. there are deep truths in interp events: "there are some things in life that are so bad you should never get over them."
6. pandora gets me
7. piercings & tattoos get your mind off things
8. you cannot appreciate people too much
9. the little things in life matter- but not enough to stress out about
10. putting dryer sheets in your pillowcase results in a very happy sleep
11. people are the most important thing in life
12. 8 am classes are a bad idea
13. my family is amazing
14. i have the best best friend
15. leaning on others is what gets me through
taking a deep breath but not moving on,
emma
Can't say I didn't warn you.