liar.

i'm having a hard time right now because i feel like the person i am and the person my mom expects me to be are at entirely opposite ends of the spectrum. my entire life they've been just about the same with only the slightest deviations from the image she imposed upon me but now- i'm just scared she's going to find me out.

a list of things my mother-figure does not know about me:
1) i have a blog (thus, i know she won't find this list)
2) i kiss boys
3) i have my cartilage pierced
4) i am getting a tattoo on my rib cage
5) i don't go to class every single day
6) i smoke products of the tobacco persuasion
7) i consume alcoholic beverages
8) i wear eyeliner, often times entirely too thick (she's strongly against the purchase & wearing of eyeliner...i don't get it.)
9) i love jet-skiing and i go whenever i can
10) i say "bad words" on a regular basis, not only when acting

there's more, of course, but these normal things would be the biggest disappointments to her.
she's the only member of my immediate family who doesn't know i have my cartilage pierced- i told my dad today. he was surprisingly okay with it and just asked if it hurt...but he also said that if/when i tell my mom he gets to act like he had no clue. you see, we're all a little scared of her.

pretending,
emma